Continued from Chapter 20.
“You create your reality through your thoughts, emotions, beliefs, and intent, which determine your vibration and thus the people, objects, events, and circumstances you attract to your life.” Orin, in Spiritual Growth: Being your Higher Self by Sanaya Roman.Thoughts Become Things
Credit: Positive Thoughts / My Little Slice of Life
By Richard Juarez
“Welcome back, mijos,” said Don Emilio, as we walked into the garden shed. He was seated next to the worktable.
“Good morning, Don Emilio,” I said cheerfully. It had been three weeks since our last session, and I was anxious to get back to our discussion on creating.
“Happy Thanksgiving, Don Emilio,” added Tony. “Did you celebrate Thanksgiving?”
“Happy Thanksgiving to you both. I like to eat turkey, so I celebrated while I was in Los Angeles. Were you able to say a prayer at the meal with your families?”
“I wrote mine down,” I answered, “and it turned out to not be such a big deal after all. Gracie asked me if the prayer was from you. I told her it was generally what you told us, but that I added my own stuff. She said she liked giving thanks to the food and to the people who helped get the food to us.”
“I said mine too,” said Tony. “No one made a big deal about it, although I got some looks when I went on about thanking the vegetables and the turkey. But they didn’t say anything.”
“Another accomplishment that seemed a difficult task when you first feared it, but it turned out to be fairly simple, que no?”
We nodded. He then asked about our experience keeping track of energy losses.
“Do you want to know the number of times we screwed up and lost energy?” Tony asked.
“No, it is not that at all. There is no judgment here.”
Well, that’s a relief, I thought to myself, because on some days I had a long list. But other days, it was pretty short. “So you want us to focus on progress, not numbers?”
“Yes. This exercise is about becoming aware of what brings your energy down. Before we started these sessions, you never thought about these situations in terms of energy loss. When you write down an incident of energy loss, you are forced to think about what caused it.”
“This was difficult at first,” I said, “because I had to slow down and think about what I was doing, and I had to remember to write about it when I lost energy.”
“What were the main things that caused you to lose energy?” asked Don Emilio.
I looked my notes, and grinned. “Dealing with my sisters and having to do yard work. The yard work was a triple whammy, because I lost energy just thinking about having to go out there and do it, I lost energy doing it and complaining to myself, and then I lost even more energy when I listened to my father tell me how I needed to do it better.”
“No problem there,” said Tony grinning. “You ought to be able to stop losing that energy when you turn twenty-five and move out of the house.” Tony laughed at his own joke.
“Shouldn’t take me that long to stop losing energy over yard work. I’ll move out when I’m twenty-one.” We laughed together. “Naw, not really,” I said, turning to Don Emilio. “Over these weeks I learned to control my reaction to things my sisters do that bug me. And I don’t have to make such a big deal about doing my weekly chores in the yard. The number of times that I lost energy on these has been less each week.”
“Very good, Vicente. And you, Antonio?”
“Oh, some of the same stuff. Reacting to my brothers and sisters. But I’m learning to control how I react to them. The next big place where I lose energy is when Big Mike tells me to do something in the store that I don’t really want to do. But I’m learning not to react so negatively. I remind myself that I’m lucky to have a job and earn money for doing those things.”
“Very good!” said Don Emilio. “You both learned when and how you lose energy. You noticed that your internal resistance to certain situations could bring your energy down quickly. I want you to continue practicing this energy awareness.”
“Right,” said Tony. “Why work on raising our energy if we turn right around and lose it?”
“This is called stalking,” said Don Emilio, “like an animal stalking its prey. But instead of stalking prey, you are stalking or watching yourself. You step outside yourself, so to speak, so you can be more observant and aware of what you do, think, or say to leak energy. There is much more to the concept of stalking, but we will save that for advanced sessions.
“Now, let us return to the topic of creating. We will begin an exercise that we will not finish today. You will continue it on your own until we meet next time. Relax now, and take a few deep breaths. For this exercise, close your eyes, and think of something you want.”
He paused briefly. “Okay, did you both think of something?”
“Uh, wait … not yet,” answered Tony.
“Just something simple,” Don Emilio continued. “It does not have to be the final greatest thing you ever wanted, okay?”
We both agreed. He gave us a little more time, and then began again.
“This thing you have in mind, imagine it as a thought bubble located inside your energy fiels. I want you to spend a little time now thinking about and refining this thought, clarifying what it is that you want.” He paused again. “When you think you are very clear on what you want, imagine this invisible thought bubble popping free and floating out on its own, but remaining connected to your energy field by a thin fiber of light energy.”
“It sounds like the word bubbles in comic books,” I said.
“That is a good image,” said Don Emilio, “perhaps with a much thinner line connecting you with the bubble. See the image of the item you want, or a symbol that represents this item for you. Connect with the image inside its energy bubble and feed it as much emotional energy and enthusiasm as you can. What is happening on an energy level is you are pushing this emotional energy from the center of your energy field, up that thin energy fiber to this little thought bubble.”
Don Emilio paused briefly, then told us to open our eyes.
“That was pretty easy,” I said. “I could understand what you were talking about. While you were explaining about the light energy fibers, it reminded me of my eagle dream, and the strands of light I saw. That helped me with what you were saying.”
Tony looked a little confused as he stood up and moved around, shaking his head.
“It may have been easy for you because of your dream,” he said looking at me, “but this stuff was really strange for me. I mean I understood what I was hearing, but I had trouble thinking about me pushing energy up a fiber that’s connected to me.”
“I understand,” said Don Emilio. “This information about the energetic nature of reality can be difficult for the mind to grasp. I want you to know that you do not have to use thoughts of energy bubbles and fibers of light. Some people find it easier to simply think of sending light energy from the region of the heart to the thought image or symbol that represents the thought, consciously making the symbol brighter and brighter as you work with it.”
“Okay, that sounds easier,” said Tony, nodding. “I’ll try it that way.”
“As you practice this exercise,” continued Don Emilio, “fill yourself with energy as you just did, and enthusiastically push that energy to the thought or symbol. As you see the image or its symbol in your mind, know that it is real and alive out there in the web of energy, transforming from thought energy to physical matter, with all the necessary connections being made for it to come to you. Do not worry about how it will get to you. Do not wish you could have it in some future moment. Know that it is yours, right now.
“Now, since this is all new to you, there will be doubt, and your mind will likely revert to its old patterns, telling you this exercise you did is not real, and that you are not going to get it. So I suggest that you repeat the process as often as you can for a few days, to lessen the power of these old beliefs.
“After a few days, when you clearly see this item in your mind as real and yours, move to the second stage of the creation process. Think about the item out there in the web of energy, now moving toward you. Think about it with grateful expectation of its arrival—not doubting its arrival, but rather with enthusiastic anticipation, as if you were waiting for a special visitor to arrive. Appreciate it with feelings of joy, enthusiasm and gratitude. Being enthusiastically grateful is one of the keys to the creative process. Do something to demonstrate your belief that this item is on its way, perhaps making room in your closet for the new pair of shoes, for example. Now, is all this making sense to you?”
“Yeah, I think I get it now,” answered Tony. I nodded in agreement.
“Do not make your request so specific that you miss other opportunities to fulfill your desire,” added Don Emilio. “Do not insist on a full-time job when you would be okay with part-time. Do not focus on a brand new racing bicycle if you would be fine with a basic model. Be open to what comes your way. The Force will not reinterpret your desire by saying he did not really mean that; here is what he meant. You have to clearly imagine what you mean, and that what you put in that thought bubble is what you really desire. And that is why the first part of the process, the refinement of your desire, is so important.”
I looked at Tony and smiled. This was what we had been asking––how to use the secret of the ancestors to make good things happen in our lives. Tony didn’t smile back. He was still having problems with it.
“Don Emilio,” he said, “this was a lot to think about. I hope I can remember it all.”
Don Emilio looked at his watch, then at us, and said, “Yes, this was a lot. It was important information, and there is so much more. I know you are feeling a bit overwhelmed right now. Let us give it some time to sink in. How about if we take a break for now and walk over to Amador’s market. I will buy sodas for all.”
Within moments, the three of us were on our way to the corner store. Don Emilio urged us to walk in silence while we reviewed in our minds what we had just covered. We didn’t really have a lot of time to think about it, since the store was less than a block away.
Big Mike was in the store, so he and Don Emilio got a chance to talk. They sounded like good friends, so I got the impression that they had talked many times since Don Emilio first arrived. While they talked, Tony and I walked around near the back of the store. It felt good to move around a little since we had been sitting for so long in the garden shed.
“Hola, Doña!” we heard Big Mike call out to a customer. I looked over and was surprised to see Doña Rosa standing in the doorway. As she came in and walked toward the two men, I could see that someone was behind her. I wondered if it would be…yes! It was Gloria!
I know I blushed. I could feel my face getting warm, and my ears too.
“Hey, your face is pink,” whispered Tony. “You still have time to go bright red.”
Big Mike introduced Gloria and Doña Rosa to Don Emilio, and the four of them carried on quite a conversation. Don Emilio really turned on the charm, getting broad smiles from Doña Rosa. After a while Gloria noticed Tony and me hanging around the back area, so she excused herself and came over to say hello.
“What a coincidence to see you guys here.”
Tony and I looked at each other and smiled, knowing that Don Emilio didn’t believe in coincidences. He had looked at his watch just before cutting off our conversation and suggesting that we walk over Amador’s. Well, as far as I was concerned, it didn’t matter to me if it was planned or if he simply had gotten an inspiration to go to the store, for there I was, standing in front of Gloria.
“Yeah … and we were just talking about you,” said Tony. “Ain’t that a coincidence.” He stood there looking at me and tapping his foot, waiting for me to make my move.
“Hey, Gloria … uh, good to see you.” Suddenly I didn’t know what to say. “Uh … you look nice today.” I didn’t have the slightest idea if what she had on looked good or not. It just popped out of my mouth. But she always looked good to me. Today she had her long hair up in a ponytail twisted up into a bun. I liked that look on her. It showed off her face and her neck.
“Oh, brother,” Tony mumbled almost too low to hear. “I mean, hey bro, I have to straighten a few things out in the back room while we’re here. Don’t leave without me.” Tony disappeared into the back room, leaving me with Gloria.
“I’m glad my grandmother had a chance to meet your Tío. It sounds like they’re having the grandest time up there. I didn’t think you guys would be done with your lessons for today.”
And I didn’t know she even knew we were having a lesson today. I think women in this neighborhood have this communication system that us guys can’t even begin to understand.
“We aren’t quite finished. We decided to take a break and come here for a soda.” Suddenly I wondered why we didn’t just go to Nana’s refrigerator and get sodas from there. “We still have more to cover, so we’ll go back to my Nana’s in a little while, after they finish talking.”
“Well, before they finish talking, I better go grab a few things we came in for.” She stroked my arm, then turned and started walking through the aisles. I stood there watching as she walked away.
In the back room Tony was sitting in the corner office with his feet up on Big Mike’s desk.
“I thought you had some work to do.”
“Nah, I don’t have to work today. I just said that so I wouldn’t have to hear you blabbering like an idiot.” We both laughed. “Hey, at least your face isn’t so pink anymore.”
“Well,” I said, “that was pretty cool, and quite a surprise, getting to see Gloria. At least I was surprised. I bet Don Emilio wasn’t surprised.”
By the time we got back to Nana and Tata’s the three of us were getting hungry. So Don Emilio suggested we stop for the day and continue the discussion the next morning.
“That was a great session we had yesterday,” I said to Tony as we walked over to see Don Emilio. “I’m glad we finally got into the meat of these teachings.”
This time we were walking from my house, so it was a short walk
“I’m glad too, but I’m having a hard time keeping up. It feels like he’s really piling it on.”
“Yeah, it’s a lot, but I’m feeling really good about it,” I said, as we started up the front steps into Nana and Tata’s yard. “I want to hear what else he has to say about creating so we can start getting things we want.”
“I’ve got a lot of questions I need to ask him about creating,” said Tony as he walked behind me toward the garden shed.
As usual, Don Emilio was already sitting there in his chair. He greeted us and pointed to our seats, likely aware that we wanted to get started right away. Once we were settled, Tony spoke right up.
“Don Emilio, you say we created what’s in our life by what we have thought about and focused on. But what if we thought about something and really wanted it, but it didn’t happen? Why do we get some things and not others? Is this Force only able to make it work sometimes but not others? And what about all the bad stuff that has happened. Why does it seem so easy to make bad things happen, and so hard to make good things happen?”
Tony was really on a roll. He paused, like he had more to ask, but then settled back in his chair to give Don Emilio a chance to answer.
Don Emilio didn’t respond right away. Instead he seemed to be thinking about what he wanted to say. After what seemed like a long silence, he answered.
“Let me say this again. You have created everything that is in your life, by what you focus on, consciously or unconsciously. Let us say a student likes math and believes math is easy, and that he knows he is going to get an A. He will get an A because of his positive focus on math, his delight in learning math in class and as he reads his textbook, and his unwavering belief that he will get that A. If a student has been sick the first week of school in the past, and then all summer hopes he does not get sick the first week of school, he will be sick that first week….”
“Whoa, wait a minute,” said Tony, jumping in before Don Emilio could finish. “I can see the first one, because he likes math and finds it easy and believes he will get an A. But the second one doesn’t want to get sick. See, bad things happen even though he doesn’t want it to happen.”
Don Emilio didn’t answer immediately, meaning he was giving us time to figure this one out. So I thought I would try.
“You said we get what we focus on. So, in these two cases, is it because of what they focused on? The first one enjoyed math and focused on getting A’s. The other guy focused on sickness.”
“Correct.” said Don Emilio, “In both cases they got what they focused on. One student focused on liking math and expected to do well, and therefore got an “A”. The second student thought about sickness all summer. The first week of school he got what he focused on. So you need to be careful what you focus on, and be aware of where you put your attention.”
“But I thought the second guy didn’t want to be sick,” said Tony.
“Probably not, answered Don Emilio, “but the focus of his attention was sickness. He can change that by thinking about being healthy, giving thanks for being well during the summer, and imagining how great it will be to enjoy the first week of school with all his friends, all healthy and happy starting the new year. In addition to worrying about getting sick, he may have had a belief that he gets sick at that same time each year. He needs to change that belief.
“This illustrates another factor in the creation process––how your underlying beliefs may block you, and not just your conscious beliefs. There may be some beliefs you are not even aware of that prevent you from getting what you say you want.”
“Wait,” said Tony. “Something I don’t know I believe could be blocking me?”
“Yes. It is one reason people do not always get what they think they want. They pray to God over and over and still do not receive what they are requesting, and wonder why.”
Suddenly I was feeling very confused. It felt like all my positive energy had just leaked right out. I looked over at Tony. He was shaking his head, apparently just as confused.
“Oh man,” he whined, “how can we tell a belief is blocking us if we don’t know we have that belief?”
Don Emilio didn’t answer right way. He got up from his chair and walked slowly back and forth in front of the worktable, eyes down, not saying anything.
“Okay, okay, I get it,” I said. “You’re waiting for us to answer the question.”
“I don’t think that’s going to work this time,” said Tony. “I am so confused. I don’t have a clue how to find out something I believe, that I don’t know I believe.”
“I know you boys are feeling frustrated right now,” said Don Emilio, now looking directly at us, “so I will help you. A Shaman who wants more easily to control his creating process does what is called a clearing. Some call it a recapitulation. He identifies emotional energy blocks and negative beliefs. Once the negative thoughts and beliefs have been cleared, the things that he focuses on, without countering beliefs, will show up more quickly.”
“Okay, that sounds great,” said Tony. “So tell us how.”
Again Don Emilio didn’t say anything. He was waiting to see if we had any suggestions.
“Okay, wait,” I said. “Let me see if I can guess. Maybe we should meditate, with the thought that we want to know why we aren’t able to attract what we wanted. Maybe we will get some inspiration or message that tells us what is blocking us.”
“Hmm, that’s good,” said Tony, “I think.” We both looked at Don Emilio.
“Hmm, sounds good to me too,” he said. “By going deep inside, you give your inner awareness a chance to identify potential hidden blocks. If meditation puts you too deep to keep focused on this problem, you might get the answer by just sitting very still, quieting your mind, asking for some guidance on this question, and allowing the information to come through.”
“But what if we don’t get the answers with meditation or quiet sitting?” asked Tony. “Are we just stuck? Is there another way to find out what we believe but don’t know about?”
“The second approach to clearing would be a complete assessment of your beliefs, to see what thoughts might be blocking you.”
Oh my God, I thought to myself, did he just say a complete assessment of our beliefs?
“As an example,” he continued, “let us say you wanted a new job that paid more money. So you start by looking at your beliefs about money. You can write down or just mentally list any beliefs you have about money. The act of thinking deeply about an item, and listing what comes to mind allows the information we have below our surface awareness to come out. Using the money example, Vicente, are there any negative beliefs you have about money?”
“Let me see … how about … I never have enough money.”
“Money is hard to come by,” added Tony.
“I have another one,” I said. “You have to pinch your pennies to save up any money.”
“If you have a lot of money you must have cheated people,” said Tony.
We quickly ran out of negative things to say about money. When you don’t have any, there’s not a whole lot to say. Don Emilio asked us if we wanted a few more minutes to see if we could think of anything else, but we both felt like that was about it.
“Now I want you both to get into a very relaxed state. I am going to have you start meditating on your breath, but only for a short time to help you get very relaxed.” Don Emilio paused for a few moments as we sat quietly, focused on our breath. “As you continue to be aware of each breath, think again about money, and see if any other thoughts about money come up. If so, do not speak out loud yet. Wait and see if more thoughts come up, and when we stop we will hear about any thoughts.” He paused again to let us proceed.
As usual, Don Emilio was right. I didn’t think I had any more to say about money, but in that quiet space, new thoughts did pop up, for both of us. I started off first.
“Not having money is the real root of all evil.”
“Time is money,” said Tony. He looked over at me, and then decided to go ahead with another. “Money can’t buy happiness.”
“Yeah, and like the Beatles said, money can’t buy me love.”
“Okay,” said Don Emilio, “that is enough to show that as you go into the silence, some additional beliefs show up that you were not consciously aware of. A person’s emotions and opinions can also give you a clue to beliefs that may be causing blocks. Perhaps he gets irritated when he sees someone with a new car, and he says they are just showing off, trying to make their neighbors think they have lots of money.”
“Yeah, I’ve heard comments like that,” said Tony.
“The person making those comments has an issue with money that needs to be cleared,” said Don Emilio. “A person cannot desire more money, and also have a negative belief about people who have money.”
“Some kids in school think the ones who get A’s are trying to show off,” I said. “And they don’t want anyone to think they’re showing off, so they don’t get good grades.”
“Yeah, and if those kids suddenly needed to get A’s and B’s to raise their grades to a C average to qualify for sports,” said Tony, “you’re saying it ain’t gonna happen.”
“Correct. It could be very difficult for such students to get good grades while having a negative perception of anyone who gets good grades. Now, as I said, you could do this for many areas of your beliefs.”
“But Don Emilio,” I whined, “couldn’t there be a ton of beliefs, a hundred or more?”
“Yes, and I see you realize it could take quite a bit of work to completely clear using this method, depending on how many countering beliefs and thoughts one holds, known and unknown. But that is just what many shamans do to clear those blocks.”
The thought of doing what we just did for a hundred or more beliefs floored me. “We might as well stop there,” I said, “‘cause neither of us is gonna do that! It would take forever!”
“Now, now, do not worry. I will not ask you to go through all possible beliefs to look for blocks. As I said, a shaman looking to clear all his blocks, would do so. But that is a very intense course of action. Since you are just starting out on this path, a more efficient process is to deal with blocks as you become aware of them. If there is something you have focused on, and it is not coming to you, stop and try to identify beliefs that may blocking you. For you it is better to deal with what is, rather than a long list of beliefs that might come up later.”
“Yeah, I agree,” said Tony, sounding greatly relieved.
“Let us end here,” said Don Emilio. “I know this is a lot of information to absorb. Your practice for next time is to continue with the creation process you began, focusing on your desired outcome and its thought bubble. Push energy out to it, with emotion, helping it to move toward manifestation. Do this in the two stages we discussed, and identify at least one belief or thought that might block your success.”
As Tony and I walked out of the shed we saw Tata sitting there in the shade of the patio with his eyes closed. He slowly opened his eyes as he heard us walk toward him.
“Hola, mijitos. Tell me, what did you study today?”
Tony jumped right in and told him in Spanish a little about what we had covered today.
“Very good,” answered Tata in Spanish. “I hope Emilio will be able to teach you boys how to create better conditions in this neighborhood. Get rid of these junkyards. Create jobs for the young people. Get rid of the drugs and the violence.”
Tony looked over at me to see if I had understood.
“Yeah, I got it,” I said. “He’s right. What good is raising our energy to do a power animal journey, or making up some little thing for a thought bubble, when we have to live here with all these real-life problems?”
“Well, if you want to do something about those problems, why don’t you raise your energy and focus on getting a job working on neighborhood problems.”
It was strange that Tony said it that way. I had often thought about Cesar Chavez and those who work with him, who have done so much to help farm workers. What we need are people like him in the cities, working on these neighborhood problems.
Tony interrupted my thoughts, saying, “You’re thinking about something. Is it something you want me to tell him for you?”
“Naw. Let’s just go.” I gave Tata a goodbye hug and went into the house to give one to Nana. I came right back out, and as Tony and I walked through the yard and toward the front gate, we called out a final goodbye to Don Emilio, who was still sitting in the shed.
As we walked down the steps, I turned to look at Tony and grinned. “I think we’re getting closer to understanding this stuff so we can really use it.”
“Yeah, he really poured it on yesterday and today, and last month. Everything he’s been telling us up to now has been leading up to these sessions on creating. But do you think we can really create what we want in our lives?”
“Well, it’s what he and his teacher have been using in their lives, and it’s what he teaches others,” I answered. “I guess if we learn it right, we should be able to do what he teaches, don’t you think?”
“He did show us how to get our energy and vibration high enough to get x-ray vision, talk with trees, and fly with eagles. So I guess, why stop there, huh?”
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